2020 Word of the Year Update
At the beginning of the year, I announced that my word was fearless. And I was terrified to choose that word! I was scared that God would test me in the most difficult ways to see if I would truly live out a fearless mindset and faith.
Ways I've Already Needed to be Courageous
Well, we're two months in and I’ve already seen God work in my heart. If you didn’t know, I started a new job in January (read why I changed jobs ), and I knew when I accepted it that it would challenge me in a lot of ways. I am naturally an introvert, so a field sales position really requires me to get out of my comfort zone to meet with a variety of people I’ve never met before face to face (uh, hello that’s terrifying) and try to sell them something I think is really cool. But the real question is will THEY think it’s cool?! haha.
I went to San Francisco the second week of January, stayed in an apartment by myself, had to uber all over the city and essentially hang out by myself all week after work. When I got back I had to adjust to my new schedule and new office space/coworkers, as well as learn a completely new product to get certified within 2 weeks.
Shortly after that I went to New York Fashion Week for the first time ever with girls I’ve only met via IG (you can read all about my thoughts on that ).
And most recently has been the Covid outbreak that has completely paralyzed the world in fear (I have a post on things you can do during quarantine ). Honestly, I can say I haven't lost an ounce of sleep over this virus and have complete trust that God is in control and will work all things for good. I know it's pretty rare thinking but I truly believe that God has worked on my heart and mind so much already to equip me with the right mindset! Anytime you're living in fear, you're saying that you don't trust God. I want to trust Him FULLY, which is why I have worked on making this shift!
Why Being Fearless Has Been Difficult in the Past
I started reading Dangerous Prayers this month - partially because I was afraid that God would put some difficult obstacles in my path this year, and to hopefully help me process who God is and what impact Prayer has.
When I was a sophomore in college I prayed a big dangerous prayer that God would strip me of my pride (be careful what you ask for haha), and within a weeks time frame my whole life was in shambles. to read about what I learned from that season.
Ever since then, I have been weary of praying anything bold, life changing or asking God to change something about my heart out of fear that it would require something bad to happen. As I transitioned out of that difficult season, I was always looking for something bad to happen and knew that people are in 1 of 3 types of seasons you’re either in a storm, coming out of a storm, and about to go into one. And I was constantly waiting to go into another trial. Reading this book has helped me process my thoughts and feelings towards dangerous prayers and I can’t wait to finish it to see what God does in me and through me.
Personal Reflection
Looking back already on the first two months of the year, I’m proud of how I’ve handled all of the change in my life and putting myself out of my comfort zone. I’ve made some new friends across the country, experienced new things and grown and learned so much already. I’m excited and anxious to see what God does next!
What about you? How has your year been? Anything big, exciting, scary happened already? I wanna know how you’re doing and if there’s anyway that I can encourage you!
